Bacot person!

OMG, i am so irritated right now! damn you! yes my indo language isn't good. yes i am bad at indo. so what? and i did not ask it in the wrong way mr perfect! so much going on in just a moment! seriously is just a m-o-m-e-n-t! i regret what i did last time with you! you are not worth anything from me asshole! I won't say i hate you cos the opposite of hate is love, so i will just say screw you ! i did so much wrong to deserve thisss:( i hate it here! wanna disappear from this place now!



and also we argued:( damnn... i got a little jealous with his cousin i mean cos by looks of course i am nothing compared to her. he make me insecure! damn! life is hard for me. what is this!!!! please i just wanna go home! i just want a simple life is that wrong to have? :( sigh

friends, family, bf? damn!


i always try to see the positive side of everything but i always failed to do so :(

Last Day of the week

Today is the day! last day of the week.. i can relax a littleee:D Seriously it has been a long week filled with exams, quizzesss, homework assignment esssaysss.. damnnn.. :( though its the last day of the week, i still need to do my work tomorrow morning. i am going to wake up early tomorrow morning and complete as many assignment i could.. sigh.. when can life be a little easier for me? i am seriously not complaning. i am contended with whatever i had. serious!sometimes life's hard. Whatever it is, i will try my best to do the best and not let anyone look down on me! jia you!!!



P.S  i miss my secondary school life with my classmates and the prefects:( the innocent time of me i guess.. hahha.. i hope time can stop just for a little longer...

LaZy lAzY

Today i don't feel like doin anythhin!! i just wanna lay in my beddd.....

nah, i can't do that.. i have class that ends at 9.30 today but it is gonna be the last day of the weeek.... wooottsss! hahaha,, suffer for another 12 hours and out i go! haha..

Okay, Jane, please don't be lazy! please be hardworking! pls do what u need to do . please don't let anyone look down on u. please don't disappoint everyone. pleaseee...

一切的一切都要加油！天下无难事！加油！
不要轻易放弃，否则对不起自己！ 加油刘瑞茹！

Life

Life is dramatic eh? Or maybe i should say mine is dramatic-__-. Many say that it is better to have a dramatic life with many things going on rather than having a peaceful life with nothing really remarkable going on. To me, i just want that simple life with my friends and family thats it. is that the hardest thing that i can wish and hope for? Maybe yes.. Living in the United States makes life dramatic; in terms of friends and family-- problems so arise with friends when u see them almost everyday. sigh, seriously, whatever happened in my life makes me don't feel like doing anything. i mean i lost my drive in working hard and achieving the best. I don't know what is going on to me but i cant help it but be lazy... i hope i can be the normal me again. it sucks to know that i am changing into someone that i don't want to be.

Friends say i change, but do you guys know that i hate myself so much? I hate that i change into someone who is in patient, i hate that i change into someone who is lazy, i hate that i change into someone who do things slowly, i hate that i started to ignore what others think about me, i hate that i am not the jane 2 years ago. who knows all this? none.. who knows what i am really thinking? none. even you are like that :( it hurts to know and see this but who can help me? none:(


How i wish i didn't do anything i regretted, how i wish people don't judge on me based on something stupid i did, how i wish life can be simple, how i wish i can turn back time and undo the things that i should not have done :( how i wish.......

Wonderringgg

Damn its been long since i updated my blogg.. hahaha:p seriouslyy i need to get used to bloggingg. hahaha:p 

its been a busy week with exams and quizzes and homework and exam and quizzes againn.. so tired.. have not got enough sleep.. looking like a ppaannddaa.. if u know what i mean. haha ;p 

people might think why i had a blog without any followers, well because i wanna make it more personal. more private to myself and allowing only certain people read like merline! HAHAHAHA. well it doesnt matter how many people is following me. as long as i can vent my anger and show my feelings, i am fine with it :D

I just don't get it!

well, when people asked you why you treated me like that you said because of that Itouch incident. Fof goodness sake please stop being a small kid! you are just another person who had an adult body with a child's mindset! whatever is it i wont be affected by you! I LIVE FOR MYSELF NOT YOU OR ANYONE! DO WHATEVER YOU WANT. COS YOU ARENT PERFECT WHEN YOU THINK YOU ARE! I OWNT HATE YOU! BECAUSE I AM NOTTHE SAME TYPE OF PERSON AS YOU! F U!

Happy But Fattening day!

Its the Labor day weekendd! i guess everyone enjoyed theirs by going out of town. haha. well basically for me, i spent everyday of the weekends at home studying and doing work. It'd fine actually because i went out today with Emmy jie :D hehe


Brea Mall is our destination. First when we reached, we went to eat The Cheesecake Factory! Superb food with high calories :"(. I order Fetucini Alfredo and Green Mint Tea.. yummy.. but as i said calories content are higghhh... noooooo!!!!! After the main course, its the dessert part! superb too!!
                                                             
                                                                    Green Mint Tea

Fetucini Alfredo 

Chocolate Raspberry Truffle 

Yummy isn't?? i know you are drrooollingg!! (Y) hahah..




After lunch, we went to Brea Mall to shop. I bought 5 shirts in total :D teeheeee:) heheheh..

enjoyed my day!

I PROMISE TO GO ON A DIET STARTING TOMORROW!!!

Don't judge eh!

For the last semester i swear i had done things that are wrong. I mean no one is perfect but who are  you to judge? You are just my friend who hang out with me sometimes? well, i do treat u as a friend but if this is what  i get in return then there is nothing much i could do. you are a guy and why are you acting like a girl?? i seriously don't get people like you!

I may not be perfect, I may not be the nicest girl However when you says that  this guy likes to get close to girls and stuff, you aren't any better. please for goodness sake think of what you are doing before you judge. There aren't any different between you and him.

You might be angry and pissed with me because of the present of another friend. But did you know you guys make me buy my own present for her instead of sharing. THINK who is in the wrong.. I asked you guys for like thousands of time to think of her presents and buying her presents. Did you guys respond to me? Having me to get her a present at the very last minute is that right? I bought her what she wants isn't that the things that you guys doesn't wanna buy for her? why are you acting like a girl? Damn what a friend i have.

Sorry but this is what i think about you. you keep showing me that attitude that i believe i don't deserve. please think before you act...

Back to LA!

Didn't i told you that i am bad at blogging? Haha.. And also i won't blog a lot :p i am still not used to it yet! super headache. i will try to remember to update everyday. haha.. new aim back in LA. haha..


Things between me and Him went pretty well. No one understands me when i said i don't wanna be back here. Even my dearest mom and him doesn't. they keep thinking i will have fun with my friend after awwhilee.. who the hell is having fun here? i mean not that i don't wanna see my friends its just that it feels different. I am not lying its different. :( so life for the first week goes pretty hectic and busy with classes and meet ups with friends.. but what really tires me are the classes that i took.. what i really hope is that i can do well in everyone of them. i dont want my friends to look down on me. and i hope i dont lose my motivation in doing well! jia you :D

thats all for now.. its super later here in LA! i willmake sure i wakes up early and do all my work :D