In an instance, everything change. You treated me differently, tell them the wrong thing, make them judge me in the wrong way.. damn itt! its been almost a week since we talked and see each other. what is it going to be? maybe its time to let go of something and someone whom u cared alot. or maybe i should give up and end the suffering that i am going through. seriously. i do cherish this relationship but problems keep coming up and we can't seem to find an agreeing term :(. he has his own thinking and perception and same goes to me. we are too different. different in a way that drift us a part. He don't see it but i do. I do not wnat history to repeat itself. i don't want whatever happened in spring happened again in fall. please, i am afraid. afraid of what the future, afraid of you, afraid of being hurt again.
you asked why would i be hurt.. is that something you need to ask? sighh.. how i wish i do not need to think about this problems which make me can't sleep and eat well.. dammnnn it! sighhh
我不想長大。不想面對一些讓人心痛的事。不想讓人對我有不好的看法。不想離家太遠。不想每天自己在房間裡只是對著電腦和四面牆。。。
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